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Posted: September 6, 2013 in Makes-Me-Wonder Moments

Nowadays, you don’t have to “spend time” with a person to know them. For basic information such as their likes, hobbies, dislikes and favorites can be accessed in just a click. Through social networking sites, such as Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and certain blogging sites, you can know so much about a person—well, you can at least know them by the surface. There are still, of course, a lot of things—especially secrets and certain sides of people you didn’t expect them to have—you would only find out upon hanging out or actually spending time with people. But my point is, because of our online profiles, we give even mere strangers so much information about ourselves; we give them an idea as to what kind of person we are. Which got me thinking. With all my previous posts on the Internet, what kind of image am I giving to people? What are the things that define me as a person based on the Internet? What are my labels?

With all the self-reassessment, what defines me as person based on my Internet posts are the following:

  1. A Solid How I Met Your Mother Fan

This label I am proud of. Yup. Guilty as charged; I’m a solid HIMYM fan. Now that the ninth and final season is coming up, my Facebook posts are roughly 80% How I Met Your Mother related. The other 20% goes to statuses, memes, school announcements and other cool stuff I find on the net.  I really, really love the show. It’s not like most comedies—this one actually has a lot of heart into it. This label would be an accurate in real life as well. Ask my friends and family. I have copies of all the episodes, including behind the scenes videos—and I can’t go two days without watching an episode. It’s like I have to have a daily dose of HIMYM. I watch it so much I’m close to memorizing episode titles, and if you give me random scenes, I can tell you which episode and which season it came from. I make references to the show; I apply some of the rules, lessons and philosophies in real life; I can quote lines in verbatim—I’m that addicted to How I Met Your Mother! And proud of it. Haha.

  1. A Hunger Games Fan

Amongst my posts, the one that has the second greatest number would be Hunger Games related. Well, I also admit to being a Hunger Games fan. I appreciated the books, it’s actually the first trilogy I actually finished reading. And I’m the type of person that abandons a book once it gets boring, but I held on to this series. Well, I do admit that Mockingjay was too long and was getting dull, but still great just the same. I also make references to the books, relating the Hunger Games culture to some instances of school life. (My blockmates will know what I mean. Haha.) And I’m excited for the upcoming movie: Catching Fire. I actually made a deal with my thesis group that we would finish the thesis on or before November 22nd, which is a day before Catching Fire premieres here in the Philippines. Yeah. I don’t want any distractions while watching the film. It’ll be my reward to myself for finishing the thesis. I’m planning to watch it on IMAX. But before that, I had to face schoolwork.  And so I say: may the odds be ever in our favor. Haha.

  1. A Girl with Issues on Her Weight and Appearance

My rants and posts falling under this category all in my Twitter account. Yeah, once things get personal, I tend to put it on Twitter. Too many watching eyes on Facebook, seriously. So, uh, yeah. Issues about weight and appearance. Hmmm. I dunno what people are thinking whenever they see me post like that. I dunno if they feel pity or if they feel like I’m seeking attention. Let me put it this way, then. I really don’t feel good about myself. I’m the type of person who isn’t comfortable with their skin. Yeah, some people re-assure me that I’m talented and skilled. But in most days, I don’t find that comforting.  Most people will only look at you by the surface. And what they will see when they look at me is a fat unattractive girl. These issues had something to do with my Daddy issues. I grew up being compared to my cousins who were damn right beautiful and sexy—and I still experience this phenomenon till now. Occasionally. Even if I work so hard to be above them when it comes to grades, talents and skills, I still hear my Dad rant. Why couldn’t be more like your cousins who wouldn’t dare go out without fixing themselves in the mirror? Well, excuse me for thinking there’s more to life than just looking good. …Well, I think that clears this item. You get the point.

  1. A Girl with Serious Daddy Issues (and Issues with Men in General)

Okay, so this one is all in Twitter. Seriously, Twitter—other than this blog and occasional talks with by best friend—is my only outlet. If I don’t rant on Twitter, I think I’ll explode. So I apologize to my Twitter followers for having to read my frequent rant tweets about men and a certain man whom I despise. But I really need to let it out.

Dad has been… really difficult. Other than the constant insults, I can’t stand his attitude. And I really can’t get over the fact that he… repeatedly… well… yeah. I admit that I have serious Daddy issues that led me to almost being a man-hater. Well, I don’t hate men. I just hate men who are like him. Men who would do that. What my Dad did got me scared of relationships, scared of trusting men. I came the point that I don’t think I can get married without a pre-nup, just to be safe.

I am trying to change my relationship with him, I really am. It’s just so difficult. But, like all difficult things, they’re doable. I don’t want to be the girl with Daddy issues forever. I’ll get over this stage eventually. I just need to find a way to forgive him. No matter how stupid, obnoxious and douch-ee he may be.

 

Hmm.  I guess I was giving people a clear image of me. At least an image of what on the surface. But still, they don’t know my entirety,  nor the deeper story about some of my posts. So I guess it’s still a good thing

Tuesday, May 21, 2013 was my last day of internship. Oh how the time has passed. I went to the place where I first started: the MMDA press office. All that Sir Mike instructed me to do that day was to monitor the news, check for updates on cases—as if it was a regular day. But for me it really wasn’t. The only reporter there in the office was Ma’am Lizel of Bulletin. She actually congratulated me upon knowing it was my last day.

Surprisingly, there was not much activity that day. All I picked up was a wing van and motorcycle accident, leaving one dead on the spot, but it wasn’t used since the accident happened near Manila. Trish arrived a couple of minutes before lunch. She was going to have her evaluation and articles signed too.

Since there was nothing to do, we went on ahead to meet Sir Mike at Starbucks in Glorietta 5 after lunch, where he will sign our evaluation forms and basically wrap up our internship. There he gave us last guidelines, last tips for the road about the field, about what to do in the future, about what to expect after graduation. It was all very useful and I appreciate every bit of it. I also did appreciate Coffee Jelly he bought as a treat, as it will probably be the last. After he signed the evaluation and sealed the envelope, I was actually having graduation goggles. It’s like I don’t want the internship to end, and it feels like I don’t want to go to school anymore. I was getting used to the routine of going to police stations, talking to officials, monitoring news, writing articles and meeting deadlines.

I guess the best thing this whole experience left me is to be excited for the real thing. I am thankful for all the experiences, thankful to Sir Mike for the mentoring and thankful that I had the privilege to cover stories and events and was part of bringing the truth to the people. The internship is done. That’s one step towards being a real journalist. After 27 days of being a journalist-in-training, I’m looking forward to the future even more.

That Monday, May 20th, was I think the first time that I was completely late for work. The call time was 9 a.m., I arrived 20 minutes late. I blame the shuttle van I rode that day. It had a lot of mechanical problems that we had to stop in the middle of the road. Twice. Good thing I was not reprimanded by Sir Mike that much. Whew.

Anyway, that day the MMDA launched a new project called “MMDA Traffic Monitor”. This system enables motorists to see the actual traffic situation on the road, using their smartphones and tablets. The launch was attended by MMDA Chairman Francis Tolentino, traffic czar Yves Gonzales and other representatives of the developer of the program. The traffic monitor basically gives anyone who has an internet access to see what the Metrobase sees, but on certain areas only. Upon the launch, motorists can see nine different locations at once. In the middle of the press conference, there was actually a road accident in one of the areas featured. The purpose of the program was very much met. People at the press conferences, and those who were viewing the website that contains the program at that moment all saw a live broadcast of what’s happening in the road. It would very much warn motorists of the traffic situation and give them the chance to take alternative routes.

After the program launch, all reporters followed the Chairman to his office for interviews. They asked him more about the project and also questions regarding the issue on his SALN. After that, we all enjoyed lunch provided by the MMDA for the reporters in the conference room. It was awesome to have to sit near Chairman Toletino at lunch. For me, he was actually very humble. He’s not like some government official who is unreachable and somewhat snobby. No. He instead sits down with reporters, have lunch with them and enjoy a casual talk and laugh with them. Awesome. Truly awesome.

That Saturday, May 18th, was my first time to work on a Saturday. Well, technically I wasn’t really in the field at that time, so I guess it was okay. Every Saturday, Sir Mike takes a lot of load. Other than his regular beats—MMDA, Makati, Taguig and SPD—he also covers Rizal, Eastern Metro Manila and also NCRPO during Saturdays, so I guess the monitoring would help him at the very least. I started monitoring the news since 6 or 7 in the morning and ended at 5 in the afternoon. There were only a few notable things that happened that day. One was the fire in Marikina City that took place at 6:44 a.m. and second was the news about International Museum Day. Working on a Saturday was really not much of a hassle, although it was kind of uncomfortable to have to listen to nothing but AM radio the entire day. Still, I got a couple of hours off of my remaining time, so it was worth it.

 

May 17th, a Friday, was my co-intern Trish’s last day of internship. That day started out as any other. We went to the Makati Central Police HQ to ask for updates, but Chief Lukban was busy and Sir Garduque was nowhere to be found. When we went down to the complaint desk, there were a lot of people lined up so we can’t take a look at the blotters. The only option we had, since we had no access to our basic sources, was to monitor the news. Sir Mike told us to stand by and monitor any activity in Makati and Taguig. And so we did. Trish and I went our usual stop: the Coffeebean near People’s Support and turn on the AM radio and opened the Twitter accounts of various news organizations in multiple tabs. There was no significant activity whatsoever.

Weird. It’s like a free day. Since we were practically doing nothing, we spent the time conversing about our OJT journey, how time flew so fast. It seems like yesterday it was our first day, and now it’s our last. Well, hers anyway. My last day won’t be until the 21st. Anyway, looking back, it was a great journey so far. Other than the experiences of being in the field, meeting new people and going to different places, it’s nice that I made a new friend. It’s really one of the best things about the internship.

Anyway, since there was nothing that big to report, we thought we were going to be stuck in Coffeebean till the end of the day. Not that we mind. I personally like hanging out there. But the day was far from over. If I remember correctly, we received a text from Sir Mike around 2 or 3 in the afternoon, telling us to meet him at the MMDA press office. He said he will sign Trish’s evaluation there.

One funny thing though. Trish forgot to bring her evaluation form, so Sir ended up wrapping things up with her time card. She’ll have her evaluation signed on my last day. Cool. While we’re there in the press office, we computed our total hours and settled all stuff related to that. Sir Mike was kind enough to let me take a couple of hours off of tomorrow, even though it’s a Saturday. I’ll be helping him monitor news and call some sources for details if needed.

After getting everything settled, food, drinks and a karaoke machine arrived in the office. It seems like there was going to be a celebration. As it turns out, it’s the MMDA PIO head Ms. Candy de Jesus’ birthday on the 19th, and is having an advance celebration with the public information officers and reporters. And that includes us interns too. Cool. Trish’s last day includes free food and drinks. Lucky her. Haha. It was fun, really—having to see reporters sing their hearts out and dance around with the PIOs. Work is work, but when it comes to times like these, everyone just has fun. I can’t wait to experience such friendship and such bond in the field. I guess it’s another thing to look forward to.

The highlight of my day on May 16th was the story on the hit-and-run incident last May 12th. We were supposed to ask Chief Lukban for updates as usual, but as far as I can remember, there was no one to talk to in the Makati Police. So we all went to one of the usual places we go to in making articles. That day we stayed at Starbucks in Glorietta 5 with Sir Mike. We worked on the hit-and-run incident article, calling Makati Traffic for details. Thankfully they were very responsive. We called about 3-4 times just to complete the details that we need, but still they were patient and very accommodating.

The hit-and-run incident happened on the 12th, but it hasn’t been reported yet due to the Elections. The victims, two males (a 19-year-old and a 14-year-old) died because of the incident. They were riding a motorcycle without helmets early morning in Makati city, and were hit by an unidentified Honda Civic. Poor guys.

Sir Mike was pleased with the angle I used in the story. Instead of the usual “someone died because of…” angle, my lead started with “The Makati Traffic are on the look-out for the driver of the gray Honda Civic that hit a Suzuki Skydrive motorcycle—causing the death of two young men early Sunday morning in Makati.” Cool. I guess my angling is improving.